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IT WAS A SUCCESS...A GROUP OF GIRLS WAS CHEERING SO LOUD FOR XIANG TING (A VERY VERY CUTE SEC 1)...

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These few days i am getting quite emo...dunno y..

I hav been getting remarks by ppl saying tat i suck...i suck...then i start to wonder, do i really suck?? Or do they say the things jus out of fun...Do the frens around me are real?? Or they jus try to act gd in front of me??? Wats everyone thinking bout me???

I am always paranoid, i feel tat my mum always scold me and i feels left out in my family. I hav 2 brothers, father mother....so tat makes up 5 family members...whenever we go out, my elder and second brother will be together, and my father and mother will be together. I feel tat i am the extra one, which isnt supposed to be in this family...y do i feel tat way???

Last time my mum kept on saying tat she didnt want the 3rd child which is me...I started thinking tat i am the extra one....haiz....am i really not supposed to be in this family?? Y issit tat my parents always scold me more than my brothers (wat i think)?? Everyday i appear joyful, actually i am not.

Everyday i try to act gay in front, i am not. U think its very fun? No...i try to hide my feelings, not showing it out. Its tough being a guy like me. I wish i can have a life swap with someone..and u will know how i feel.

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Today's the first day of CNY...woke up at 9am...was so tired...went to my Mother's side grandmother's house...took an Hong Bao and left in a hr's time...then went to my Father's side grandmother's house...there was super noisy..crowded with ppl...get lots of Hong Baos....looking through them seeing how much money i hav later...hehe

Gambled...playing Blackjack....Wah my cousin was the banker and my uncle so happily gave like $30 to her...jus anyhow put $4.60, and he lost so must pay double cos he got 5 cards....my cousin must be feeling dam happy la...

Won around $8.90, sucked money from my aunt...this is a gd start of a CNY...must be showing i will earn lots of money....mwahahahhahahah

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Hm...give me ur comments for this qns....

If u like a girl and she is ur fren, will u tell her u like her?? Wat if she doesnt want to be ur fren after u tell her and she avoids u...will u want tat to happen?? If u dun wanna tat to happen then will u still tell her??

And if the girl is oso ur Fren's fren, will u tell her u like her?? And if she tells ur fren and ur fren teased & teased & teased & teased, will u take it?? Will u still tell her??

Someone tell me the answers to those qns...jus wanna know different views of ppl..

Love is something strange...u can nvr predict wats going to happen...u can never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever guess it...nvr understand it...haiz haiz haiz haiz...dun ever be troubled by love...

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Wah...shldnt hav gone to school....the CNY celebration was so boring...apart from Teresa Tseng singing....ok tat was kinda of...but not as boring as others...there was Wushu, Lion dance, Some lame performance by the CLDDS (Chinese Language Drama & Debate Society) and some lame talk by CLDDS too....wanted to sleep....

Sianz Sianz....wanteed to go bowling but went back SAJS...didnt know y nvr go bowling...haiz nvm...got a free lunch by Ms Poon...my pri school teacher...so kind of her...but she isnt married yet cannot get hong bao...dammit...

Nothing interesting today...so bored now...shld i go to sleep...cant use the com for tat long too...

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AHHH.....I FAILED MY GEOGRAPHY CA!!!! BOO HOO....I AM SO SAD....GOT 10/25....I AM SAD BECOS....EVEN IAN WON ME...HE GOT 12.5...JUS NICE...

Today was so depressed when i got my paper back...luckily got retest...but hav to study during CNY...so sad...haiz...knew it will be like tat...sianz...my history test oso the same...confirm fail....sianz...my mum gonna kill me...

Nvm...today i get to KNOCK the PART Bs down...so fun so happy...they were like fidgeting so many times even i tell them not to do so...

DUN WANNA GO SCHOOL TMW....TERESA IS COMING TO OUR SCHOOL...BUT I DUN WANNA GO SCHOOL...MY MUM FORCE ME TO GO...AHHH WAT SHLD I DO????

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OMG....TMW IS THE GEOGRAPHY CA1 AND I DUNNO HOW TO STUDY...HAVENT STUDY A THING!! AHHHH...CHIONGING RIGHT NOW...

Today supposed to decorate the classroom for CNY...but didnt....so dead i am so dead....ah but my GEOG CA1 willl kill me.....better stop blogging and study..byebye

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YES FIRST TIME TAKING TRAINING AND I AM THE OIC (Overall In-Charge), Danial is 2IC (2nd In-Charge), Jun Cong is the Part B (Sec 2s) In-Charge, Kaymond is the Part A (Sec 1s) In-Charge and Fadhil is the Part C (Sec 3s) In-Charge....as the Sec 4s are not here we are required to take up this responsibility....ok So i followed with the Part Bs....dun ask me abt Part As as i was not with them....

The Part Bs...they seriously die when my batch take over the Ncc Unit...they gonna suffer man...seriously....they hav a fucking attitude problem....Heck care attitude....ask them do properly they dun care....still talk back....wtf....i seriously hate them to the core....

So at night was the SLI the real thing....So luckily nth screwed up in the end....so it was a great success...YIPPEE

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Sry was so busy these few days tat i havent had enuff time to use the com and blog...so this post is abt wat happend on thurs.....trying to remember....hmm...hmm

Oh ya...something very scary happen to me....i was kinda rude to the teacher and my principal saw me outside and shouted at me....he asked me to take off my badge for the rest of the day and not to wear it....was dam scary..i was shocked...and was so scared...

So had our last SLI (student leader's investiture) training be4 the real thing starts on friday...wondering y need so many practices when we were already not bad...so after SLI went to Chingay Parade training...playin with flags =)....Was very fun so i dun mind

Up on the bus, i saw the same Eurasian VJC girl again...wow...but then i oso saw Mr Chew Hwa Soon....so didnt manage to see her.....talk with Mr Chew....blah blah blah....tats wat happend

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Ahh...PLS HELP ME...I CANT DO ANY QNS OF THE BLOODY HISTORY SBQ QNS...THE QNS ARE LIKE WTF?!?!?!? HOW TO INFER AND GIVE SUPPORT...THE QNS CANT EVEN INFER....AND MY GEOG PAPER IS LIKE SO DIFFICULT...I SERIOUSLY DUN UNDERSTAND ANYTHING!!! AHHHH ITS TOO STRESS FOR ME!!!!!

Ok lets digress into something else...today Danial Yap is so CLEVER tat he hang upside down on the monkey-bar and fell on his face flat!!! He hurt his face la DUH...i was laughing and laughing when he fell....so unkind of me...but who cares? =P

Yea taking over Ncc training for the first half of it this friday...gonna be so happy....gonna hav PT...wat shld i do??? Run 10 rounds around the school??? Do 5BX??? Ah think tmw....

SO HOW??? MY HISTORY SBQ IS COUNTED IN MY CA LEH...GOT MARKS ONE LEH...SHIT I AM DEAD MEAT MAN...AND THE FUCKING CLASS LOGO....I CANT THINK OF A WRITE-UP FOR IT....FUCK Y AM I DOING EVERYTHING.....THE MONITOR ISNT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT THE CLASS....BUT AS A ASST. MONITOR I AM DOING EVERYTHING...WTF??????

AHHH LIFE IS TOO STRESS FOR ME....I NEED TO DE-STRESS!!!!! NEED TO DE-STRESS QUICK!!!!!AHHH I AM GOING MAD!!!!!

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Yesterday....me and Mervin did something very lame....counting the number of times my english teacher said the word 'OK'.....for 3 periods, i guessed she said nearly 200 'OK's....We lost count at 80++...Next favourite word she said was 'ALRIGHT'. But then i nvr count how many times she said...

Haiz Ncc was tough again...but then me went there late...i went to Samuel's father's wake....me, dexter and mervin went there....to send our condolences....Samuel doesnt look sad...must be hiding inside...his younger sister whereas doesnt know anything...tats y being young is very gd...dont need to know anything...

Went back from the wake and then we went to class to finish up on our class logo...so me and dexter went to Ncc training at around 4...went to change to our NO.4 uniform...and straight away went to change back to our PT kit again...ran 5 rounds around the school...approx 3km...not tiring, was a warm-up. But many ppl fall out...

After tat was PT....cannot take it sia...50 push-ups, 50 sit-ups, 50 counts of 8 jumping-jacks, 50 counts of 4 flutter kicks and 50 counts squats...VERY TIRING...later went to do pull-ups which i oni did 4...pathetic...then went to play basketball which we got thrashed by our sir...

Danial Yap came at our games time!!!! U SUK BIG TIME DANIAL......ACHING ALL OVER ME NOW...HAIZ HAVE TO ENDURE TILL WE TAKE OVER!!

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